Product Review of Nissin Choice Ramen

I used to really LOVE Ramen noodles so while at Bi-Lo our local grocery store I was surprised to find a kind of Ramen that are 80-95% fat free with 25% less sodium than regular Ramen and they are really tasty for a sometimes snack. I wouldn't eat them every day but once a week I think they are really great.

Here is the link to their website:

www.nissinfoods.com/choiceramen/

How am I doing these days?

Honestly I am still not sure. I have lost over 140 pounds and when I look at myself I still cannot see it. I look at other people that weigh as much as I used to weigh and I see us as the same physically. This is something that I am going to work on with the psychologist. Its weird before I had the surgery I never considered that this could happen. I just figured that I would lose all the weight and that I would be thin healthy and happy, and right now I have to say that I am neither healthy nor happy. Don't get me wrong I am generally happy in life I love my family they are awesome. So when I talk about not being happy I am referring to my body I knew that I would have extra skin and that it can be fixed but it is a little difficult to be 26 years old and have the body of a 60 year old woman. Healthy is another thing that I am working on some days are better than others I am never ever hungry so its hard for my brain to accept the fact that I have to eat even if I don't want to, so I take it day by day and I am hoping that my best efforts are enough because I really DON"T want a feeding tube. Honestly the thought of it scares me to death. Going back to the issues that I have with accepting my weightloss I have to have someone go shopping with me because if not I will still buy clothes that are like an XL and go straight for the 16 pants when actually I wear a medium in tops now and a size 10 in pants, I actually find that a little humorous that I have to have a shopping babysitter and that I still think they must have made the clothes big or something. BUT anyway thats life these days and no matter how bad it seems there are always those that have it worse or even those that lost the battle so as long as I wake up every day I feel blessed!

Thursday January 8, 2009

What have I eaten today?

I am going to stop listing fluids because I never had any trouble getting all of my fluids in.


I got such a late start eating today but I have one killer sore throat!

1:30 PM
1 pork rib
4 soy crisps

3:00 PM
1 Serving of Cashews

*update as day goes on*

Wednesday January 7, 2009 Food Diary

My food, fluids and Vitamins for the day, I will update as the day progresses.


8:00 AM Start day by drinking water

10:00 AM Have finished 1/2 liter of water so now I start my breakfast.
15 cashews = 6 grams protein, 13 grams fat, and 170 calories.

1:00 PM Start drinking the rest of my 1 liter bottle of water.

2:30 PM Finish 1/2 liter of water

4:00 PM 6 smoked oysters, 2 oz. liverwurst, 5 saltine crackers.
Oysters: 8.5 grams protein, 3.5 grams fat, 75 calories
Liverwurst: 8 grams protein, 16 grams fat, 180 calories
Crackers:1 gram protein, 1.5 grams fat, 60 calories


4:30 PM - 6:30 PM 1/2 liter water


7:00 PM 2 small barbecue pork ribs (not sure the calories and protein on these)
4 soy crisps

7:30 PM more water didn't measure this time but I'd say about 4 oz.

8:00 PM handful of cashews and a few more soy crisps.

Vitamins= 2 I'm supposed to have 4 but I forgot the other two what a lame excuse I need to get my butt in gear with these vitamins.



So that is all I had for the day and to me I would say that it was a pretty good day although I am still short of my 1200 calories and my 60 grams of protein. But hey Rome wasn't built in a day as the old cliche goes.

So I have an eating disorder

Well since September I had been vomiting alot and I had believed it was because of the ulcers that I was diagnosed with. So it came to a point where apparently I had scared my self to death of food. At first I was still trying to eat and take my vitamins but I was still getting sick so it finally got to the point where I had been 4-5 days on only water and needless to say I ended up in the hospital for a week. While I was in the hospital I was given potassium through an IV ever day for 7 days and let me tell you if you have never been through it please don't potassium via IV feels like knives through your veins. So the bariatric Doctor in Anderson came to visit me and he asked me blatantly "Mrs. Barnett, do you want to die? Because that is what is going to happen if you don't eat. He also went on to say that I did not have two weeks to go to see my surgeon because if I continued like I was that I would die of a heart attack from the lack of potassium and he also said that if I did not start to eat that I would leave the hospital with a temp feeding tube through my nose. So more about my eating disorder, this is how it happened. I never ever made myself throw up this was all an unconscious thing on my part. I was led to believe by certain people that foods high in fats would absolutely make me sick, THIS IS NOT TRUE! you can eat fat and you can eat foods that are high in fat and not get sick, sugar is the thing that you have to look out for so I still keep an eye on that. The doctor and the nutritionist in Anderson because that is where I was hospitalized told me that right now I do not even need to worry about what I eat because I NEED the calories. SO... I have been eating chicken wings (with skin GASP!), BBQ pork ribs, Cashews are one of my favorite snacks. Anyway I deleted all of my low fat recipes because I figured that since I need to get in my calories and protein that what I am cooking these days wouldn't be very responsible of me to add those recipes in with the others for the people that have to watch the fats and calories to maintain. So I am turning my blog into a food journal to keep me accountable and to keep up with my progress, the road to recovery will be a long one but I am determined for my family. For those that are curios yes I am still losing weight and rather rapidly I think. I still do exercise and I know there will come a day when I will be able to eat more than 3-4 oz. per meal and I will have to watch what I eat more carefully, BUT for now this is just about living for me so I have no worries at all about the fats or calories that I take in at this moment.